Mel’s Monday Musings: July 29, 2019

Hi! Big changes are afoot for me this week.

On Saturday, I had my annual eye exam. No major changes in my Rx (enough that I need new glasses, as per usual, but my nearsightedness is slightly less terrible — apparently that can happen in your 30s. I’ll take it!)…but I have to go back in three months because he suspects that, despite it usually affecting much older people, I may have glaucoma.

Welllll…so that’s a whole Thing right there.

In case he’s right, I am now on day 3 of zero caffeine (it raises pressure inside the eye). Y’all. You don’t even know (or maybe you do). I live on caffeine. And not coffee, either (I can’t stand warm drinks and frapps never did much for me/can’t afford the super-pricey crap anyway). No, I’m a three-cans-a-day Mountain Dew girl.

Yeahhh.

Dew has always been my vice; I’ve never smoked and don’t drink regularly, etc. so I justified it that way. Besides, a mom with three kids needs all of the energy boosts she can get, right? Enter sugar + caffeine — my perfect match!

And now, exit the same. I’m not gonna lie, I’m not loving how I feel right now. I’ve given it up in the past (with each pregnancy) so I know I can do it, and I know eventually I won’t miss it. I’m also a little bit excited for the potential of weight loss — you figure that’s over 500 calories I’m no longer imbibing per day, and let’s not even get into the sugar content! I’m sure my body will be happier in the long run.

I’ve been a salted slug these past few days as far as energy goes, though. Caffeine has been a big help in covering the constant fatigue of anemia since I was a teenager. I love caffeine. But it was ruling me. I am addicted to it and that needed to change. I wish my hand hadn’t been forced, as it were, but I don’t think this would be happening any other way.

So here’s to future healthier me. Even possibly with glaucoma. (That is hella scary still but I know I’ll figure it out. I know — based on my experience with my 15-year-old dog, who herself has glaucoma — that there are many medications that can keep patients comfortable and stave off vision loss. It’s too early to freak out, although I’m not gonna lie, I was pretty freaked that first day.)

In other news, prep continues for the art show! I can’t believe it’s less than a month away now! I have so much left that I want to do…we’ll see how much actually happens, heh.

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